Belated Post!!

Well, I just realised its been almost a week since I last posted. Not much has happened to be honest, I just haven't got round to getting on the laptop for long enough to update!
I have found, also, that sometimes I don't like writing here because I like to forget whats going on! Its going to sound stupid, but we come across days where Lauryn is her old self, and we (well I) like to keep away from anything oncology related and almost pretend that we are a normal family..... haha!!

We have been to pboro every day for a week and a bit for anti-biotics, as Lauryns neutraphils have still not recovered from the battering they have taken from the chemo and the infection (whatever it was). So they have been, up to today that is, 0.1. However, today they are 0.3!! As soon as they get to 0.5, we can stop going for the anti-biotics!

Had a bit of a panic, as I often do, because Lauryns next stage of chemo has obviously been delayed for a 2nd week due to low count. This has happened before and each time, I always worry...silly really because the doctors never seem concerned, but I think that if shes not on chemo, then it may come back? I start checking for signs, and yesterday got Dr to feel her tummy incase her liver might be enlarged. It isn't. I often feel that this is never going to get easier. I find myself worrying most of the time about it all, and It scares me to think that next year the treatment will be finished and I won't have any reassurance that chemo is starting again. Trying to remain positive almost drains you sometimes, but is a necessity in this situation!!

Glad to say, Lollys weight is no longer an issue, she is now eating more and more and her weight has crept back up to 19.4kgs which is a reasonable weight to be at this stage.

Mothers Day was lovely, we had the morning in hospital for anti-biotics, then went for a yummy carvery meal with our families after at a local pub. Although, it is a hard situation, I do feel so grateful to have two gorgeous daughters, and that Lauryn is well enough that I can enjoy special occasions like Mothers Day with her. xx